4/22/2015

Ali Vincent: Believe It, Be It

By Laura Moncur @ 11:30 am — Filed under:

I wrote about Ali Vincent winning the Biggest Loser back in 2008.

Believe It, Be It: How Being the Biggest Loser Won Me Back My Life at Amazon.comThe weird thing is that I read her book, Believe It, Be It: How Being the Biggest Loser Won Me Back My Life, and I never talked about it here, despite LOVING it. I find it so strange when there is something that has really helped me and I somehow forgot to mention it on this blog. This book is one of those things.

Ali Vincent is still very active and has her own website here:

I remembered her and that inspiring book because her quote from it came up on the random Quotations Page:

When you have the courage to tell the truth about what youre really afraid of fear doesnt have control over your life. Ali Vincent from The Quotations Page

It reads:

When you have the courage to tell the truth about what you’re really afraid of, fear doesn’t have control over your life.

  • Ali Vincent, Believe It, Be It: How Being the Biggest Loser Won Me Back My Life, 2009

I really liked her book when I read it and there are TONS of quotes from that book that are inspiring:

If you are feeling uninspired, give her book a chance and read it.

4/21/2015

You Always Pass Failure on the Way to Success

By Laura Moncur @ 7:07 am — Filed under:

I saw this quote today and it made me feel so much better.

You always pass failure on the way to success. Mickey Rooney from The Quotations Page

It reads:

You always pass failure on the way to success.

  • Mickey Rooney

I have failed to eat healthy so many times. I have failed at consistent exercise so many times. After reading this quote, it makes me feel better instead of ashamed. If I wasn’t trying, I wouldn’t be failing.

My biggest problem with those past failures is thinking that they are always around the corner. I have gotten very close to a healthy weight before. Now that I am nearing a healthy weight again, I have a fear that I will “lose it.” Fear is just as damaging as any other negative emotion, so the fear of gaining weight back can, ironically, make me gain weight back.

As long as I keep following the program and using the twelve steps as a guideline for everything in my life, I will be safe. So, the opposite of fear is faith, confidence and courage. I need to meditate on that today and find another compulsive eater to help.

4/18/2015

My Eating Disorder Loves To Fantasize About Exercising

By Laura Moncur @ 10:01 am — Filed under:

The other day, I wrote this entry about old exercise machines:

The whole point of the entry is that exercise equipment hasn’t changed much in the last fifty years. For the last fifty years, our population has only been getting FATTER, so don’t bother buying any of those exercise machines that are available today because they won’t help you.

After I wrote that entry, I promptly spent the next hour researching stretchy fitness bands on Amazon and YouTube. I found the best resistance band exercises video. It’s short, simple and shows you the proper form for ten exercises.

I found an awesome printable poster for exercises for resistance bands from FitnessHealth.co.uk that you can just fold up and put in your traveling case.

Printable Resistance Band Exercises from Starling Fitness

BalanceFrom Heavy Duty Premium Resistance Band Kit with Improved Safe Door Anchor, Ankle Strap and Carrying Case at Amazon.comI had JUST written an article about how simple exercises like yoga and walking have helped me way more than intense exercises like weight training and running. I had just written an article about not letting the health and fitness industry steal your money and here I was SERIOUSLY considering dropping the thirty bucks to get this resistance band set: BalanceFrom Heavy Duty Premium Resistance Band Kit with Improved Safe Door Anchor, Ankle Strap and Carrying Case at Amazon.com. Despite the fact that I ALREADY own a resistance band set!

I realize now that my disease took over a little bit at that point.

The sad truth of the matter is: my eating disorder loves to fantasize about exercising. Ever since the age of ten, I was told that if I just exercised that I wouldn’t be fat anymore. If I wasn’t so lazy, I wouldn’t be fat.

It was a lie I believed. It’s a lie that I still catch myself believing, even though I know what has helped me and what has hindered me.

After YEARS of research on my own body, here is what I KNOW for a fact:

  • Weight training makes me binge
  • Running makes me binge
  • Skipping meals makes me binge
  • Stuffing down my feelings, instead of dealing with them in a healthy manner, makes me binge.

Yet, I’m still tempted to weight train, run, skip meals to “save calories for later,” and just ignore my feelings. I keep catching myself thinking:

  • This time, I won’t train so hard
  • This time, I will only run a little bit
  • This time I will be able to keep my food under control
  • This time my feelings aren’t that big of a deal

“This time” isn’t going to be like “last time.” That is probably the biggest lie I say to myself: “This time, I’ll be able to do it.” Just like the alcoholic who tells himself that this time he will just have one drink.

My eating disorder loves to fantasize about exercise just as much as an alcoholic loves to fantasize about being able to drink moderately. It’s a fantasy that I need to discard and accept the fact that exercise will not make me thin. It will just make me binge.

4/17/2015

PostSecret: Take Off The Ring

By Laura Moncur @ 8:00 am — Filed under:

This postcard from PostSecret was interesting.

PostSecret: Take Off The Ring from Starling Fitness

It reads:

I take off the ring that you gave me when I grow up. I’m not sure if it’s because I don’t want to ruin it or because I know how disappointed you’d be.

I was never able to throw up to rid myself of my binges. I wished that I could, but I could never really do it. It’s just a different way my disease could have harmed me that never came to pass and I’m grateful.

The reason why we binge is because there is something wrong with our brains. The reason why we purge is because there is something wrong with our brains. Science hasn’t entirely figured it out yet, but there is hope. Get yourself to Overeater’s Anonymous and be entirely honest with yourself, your group and your sponsor. You don’t have to take off the ring anymore…


PostSecret‘s beneficiary is the National Hopeline Network. It is a 24-hour hotline (1 (800) SUICIDE) for anyone who is thinking about suicide or knows someone who is considering it.


Overeater’s Anonymous does not endorse anything on this entry or blog. I speak only of my personal experience and not for OA as a whole.

4/16/2015

Old Exercise Machines from the 1979 Argos Catalogue

By Laura Moncur @ 8:00 am — Filed under:

Retrospace had a post about Argos Catalogues from Great Britain which was pretty much just about looking at half-naked women, but one page really caught my eye. It was the page from the Health and Fitness section of the catalogue.

Argos 1979 Spring Catalogue Health and Fitness from Starling Fitness

There are some fairly typical things, like these weights and springs. The springs have been replaced by plastic stretchy cords in a variety of colors, but this equipment is still available today.

Argos 1979 Spring Catalogue Weights and Springs from Starling Fitness

Even these body weight machines are still available today. Companies have slapped the word “Pilates” on the label, but other than that, they’re still the same. I talked about that here:

Argos 1979 Spring Catalogue Body Weight Machine from Starling Fitness

Even the stationary bicycles are still around. They look different, but they are still something that is recommended for losing weight.

Argos 1979 Spring Catalogue Exercise Machines from Starling Fitness

The thing that bothers me is that we have been doing this for over fifty YEARS and we are just getting fatter. Don’t waste your money on the new versions of these products, they are just as silly as the old ones. Exercise can make you stronger. Exercise will help your heart, but I have never lost weight from exercising. In fact, it just made me hungrier. Don’t let them steal your money. Take a walk outside for twenty minutes a day and save yourself money and grief.

4/15/2015

Only I Can Change My Life

By Laura Moncur @ 8:00 am — Filed under:

I love this quote from The Quotations Page:

Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me. Carol Burnett from The Quotations Page

It reads:

Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.

  • Carol Burnett

Every time I was tempted to have gastric bypass surgery, I remembered this. I could have a surgery to make my stomach tiny and if I don’t change my behavior, I will literally KILL myself by bingeing and tearing open my tiny stomach. No one can change my life for me: not a doctor, a pill, an exercise guru or even a magic exercise machine can change me.

My biggest problem is that I didn’t know HOW to change.

That’s where Overeater’s Anonymous and my sponsor helped me. Working through the twelve steps helped me to CHANGE. It gave me a whole new way of living. If you are feeling stuck, get yourself to Overeater’s Anonymous, get a sponsor and do everything they say. They can’t change your life, but they sure can show YOU how to change your life.


Overeater’s Anonymous does not endorse anything on this entry or blog. I speak only of my personal experience and not for OA as a whole.

4/14/2015

PostSecret: Pray To Get Anorexia

By Laura Moncur @ 8:09 am — Filed under:

This postcard from PostSecret was posted a couple of weeks ago and it reminded me of my past.

PostSecret: Pray To Get Anorexia from Starling Fitness

It reads:

I pray to get anorexia.

I, too, wished I could “catch” anorexia nervosa. I remember in my final meltdown, when I talked to Mike about my bingeing.

“I’m hungry all the time. I think about food all the time.” I was lamenting to Mike, my husband, about why it’s so hard for me to follow my program for more than an hour or so.

“That’s because there is something the matter with your brain. For whatever reason, it tells you that you’re hungry all the time.” He was trying to help me, but his words were anything but consoling. “You’re like an anorexic, except backwards.”

How many times had I wished I could be anorexic? How many times had I wished I could be free of this desire to eat all the time?

Mike continued talking, “What would you do if you WERE anorexic?” I cried and laughed at the same time. “I’d be so damn happy and not eat for a year. I’d finally be skinny.”

He nodded and asked, “And then after you were skinny, what would you do? If you didn’t eat, you’d die, so what would you do?”

I knew EXACTLY what the treatment for anorexics was: refeeding. Food is introduced in small quantities at regular intervals. They have to eat when the timer goes off, even though it’s the last thing they want to do. I explained it to Mike and he nodded knowingly, “That’s EXACTLY what you need to do. You have the SAME problem as an anorexic. You need to eat a small meal every couple of hours whether you feel hungry or not. You need to NOT eat in between times. Your hunger mechanism is just as broken. You can’t trust it. You just need to set a schedule and eat when the schedule tells you to.”

That is EXACTLY what I have been doing for the last year and a half and I have LOST 65 pounds. By FORCING myself to eat about 200-300 calories 5-6 times a day (every two and a half hours), I have LOST weight. I eat those tiny meals whether I feel hungry or not. My hunger is just as broken as an anorexic and I can’t trust it.

I find it so ironic that I wished for so many times to be anorexic and the cure that they use for anorexics happened to be the cure I needed for my obesity and bingeing.


PostSecret‘s beneficiary is the National Hopeline Network. It is a 24-hour hotline (1 (800) SUICIDE) for anyone who is thinking about suicide or knows someone who is considering it.

3/30/2015

Eating Anything You Want To

By Laura Moncur @ 7:34 am — Filed under:

This quote from Tom Hanks is pure genius:

Eating everything you want is not that much fun. When you live a life with no boundaries theres less joy. If you can eat anything you want to whats the fun in eating anything you want to Tom Hanks from The Quotations Page

It reads:

Eating everything you want is not that much fun. When you live a life with no boundaries, there’s less joy. If you can eat anything you want to, what’s the fun in eating anything you want to?

  • Tom Hanks, Esquire, June 2006

It’s true. There is less joy when I let myself eat anything I want, especially since it devolves into depression and constant eating very quickly. Paradoxically, limiting my food makes me HAPPIER. It makes no sense, but it does work.

3/26/2015

Self-Destructive Behaviors

By Laura Moncur @ 2:20 pm — Filed under:

This postcard from PostSecret showed up during Eating Disorders Week.

Self Destructive Behaviors from PostSecret

It reads:

The worst thing about self-destructive behaviors is when no one notices.

Sometimes our eating behaviors can hide. I wasn’t able to hide mine, although I ate upwards of 5000 calories a day during my worst, so perhaps my exercise was hiding some of my eating problems. There are many people who suffer who don’t LOOK like they have a problem and it doesn’t help that our society prefers to look at people who are scarily thin.

If you have a problem with eating, get help. Just because your family and friends and maybe even your doctor hasn’t noticed, doesn’t mean that you aren’t in trouble. Get into Overeater’s Anonymous. We will welcome you with open arms because we understand.


PostSecret‘s beneficiary is the National Hopeline Network. It is a 24-hour hotline (1 (800) SUICIDE) for anyone who is thinking about suicide or knows someone who is considering it.


Overeater’s Anonymous does not endorse anything on this entry or blog. I speak only of my personal experience and not for OA as a whole.

3/25/2015

Wearing Out Vs. Rusting Out

By Laura Moncur @ 7:31 am — Filed under:

I saw this quote on The Quotations Page today and it was inspiring to me:

Let us rather run the risk of wearing out than rusting out. Theodore Roosevelt from The Quotations Page

It reads:

Let us rather run the risk of wearing out than rusting out.

  • Theodore Roosevelt

The full quote is from his address at the opening of the gubernatorial campaign, New York City, October 5, 1898:

We are face to face with our destiny and we must meet it with high and resolute courage. For us is the life of action, of strenuous performance of duty; let us live in the harness, striving mightily; let us rather run the risk of wearing out than rusting out.

For me, that means CONSISTENCY. I need to do a little bit of exercise EVERY DAY NO MATTER WHAT. I do twenty minutes of something every day. Sometimes that’s walking the dog or doing a yoga video. Sometimes that’s weight training or running. Sometimes that’s just riding my bike to the grocery store. It doesn’t need to be go hard or go home. It needs to be GO EVERY DAY.

The next time you’re thinking of skipping your workout, remember this quote. Let us live in the harness, striving mightily!

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