This postcard from PostSecret reminded me of my worst of days suffering with my compulsive eating.
I only eat fast food if I’m near a place to throw it up.
I never was bulimic. I could never make myself throw up my huge binges. For some reason, that made me think that I wasn’t THAT bad. “Sure, I ate over 4000 calories in one sitting, but at least I didn’t throw it up,” I would think to myself. I knew I had a problem because eating that much food made me feel sick, yet I felt like I couldn’t stop.
But at least I wasn’t barfing. I wasn’t ruining my teeth. I wasn’t THAT sick.
I now know that my compulsive eating was just as dangerous and harmful as bulimia. Bingeing and purging is bad. Bingeing all by itself is just as bad. BOTH of them hurt the victims of these diseases.
And don’t fool yourself. It IS a disease. It is just as damaging as a disease. It leaves its victims just as powerless over it. It is a physiologic response to food that makes you need more and more. I’ve talked about this before here:
Watch this video if you don’t believe that compulsive overeating is not a disease:
This is the most important quote:
No one can exert willpower over a biochemical drive that goes on every minute of every day of every year.
If you are telling yourself that you’re not THAT sick because at least you don’t make yourself barf after your binges, you are WRONG. Get some help. For me, I found help at Overeater’s Anonymous, but there are mental health professionals who might also be able to nurture you back to health. The most important thing is realizing that you have a problem and getting some help for it.